I started to call this blog post, Going Big – then I felt a little small so I looked at what’s really going on and realized it’s more like becoming visible. I’ve always had that quirky, outgoing ‘out there’ kind of way of being but the truth is I use that side of myself to deflect – to keep others from seeing the me thats me… thats private… that’s either my best self or my worst self depending on the moment. Oh the things I know, that I keep to myself. The me I know, that I struggle to share, the questions I have that I hope to never find answers to. Oh Life. Oh Love. Oh the day to day call for us to be more of who we are, to stand up, show up, grow up or just get through the day with a genuine smile.
The call. What the heck is that? What is that burning desire pulling each of us to show the f__k up? For ourselves first. Then for each other. There. I said it. It’s holding our own in a sea of chaos… creating boundaries that keep us safe and knowing when to move forward and when to retreat. It’s the call to do our ‘work’ -to listen for and adjust our inner dialogue, to notice the quality of our experience depending on the people we’re surrounding ourselves with, to find something beautiful in everyone we meet. It’s the call to master the way in which we’re creating our everything. And if that means becoming visible… then So Be It. We’ve got this.
I’d rather be seen for who I am and really be seen, than pretend to be seen for who I’m not and be invisible.
Now… about that feeling small – I changed my mind.